Hola Hola,
Things here are pretty chill. Literally. One day it was summer and then the next it was COLD. I mean Coooollldddd. We don't have anything to keep warm (no heater for our little shack, nor heavy blankets) so we just pile on clothes. Hahaha! It works and we stay plenty warm, do not fret.
Also apparently here winter is on and off... so I`ll just keep my sweaters ready for the random freezing days and my sundresses ready for the next. Crazy Drunken Paraguay
(A family expression... I do not really think all of Paraguay is drunk)
Hermana Santos is awesome and I love her... She is like a Sassy Guatamaltecan Tidwell. She´s even short like Tid! Hahahhaha!
Our only downfall is we are both uuber hilarious so we goof-off maybe too much sometimes BUT thats like saying "wahhwahh my wallet is too small for my hundreds and my diamond shoes are too tight!"
Oh the sorrow of having TOO much fun.
As for the work... I feel like things are always exactly the same here in Yby Yaù. Sometimes thats good because at least we`ve mantained the Ward! and sometimes thats bad because I feel like I haven´t DONE anything.
Somedays I feel like I am doing all that I can and that comforts me... other days it tears me up because I can`t help but feel like its not enough.
Si o si, I still have some work to do it the "charity" Department.
I`m having trouble loving these people and not judging them or being upset when they Do/Will NOT recieve His message. I don´t know if they dont understand it because I dont teach it well enough or WHAT?! but... for me it`s just so good and so bright and so... WONDERFUL. The gospel is SO WONDERFUL that I just do not understand how... HOW can they not accept it? How can they reject the hand the Savior, who is continually stooping down to try and help them?
I feel like a bad missionary sometimes because I dont know if I`m motivated enough by love for the people. I am motivated more by my love for my Saviour than for my love for the people. I want them to accept the Gospel because I want God`s children get back to Him. I want to feed His sheep because I love Him, but sometime I feel like I could care less for the sheep.
Not because I´m heartless, and don`t get me wrong... most days I am overflowing with love... but every once in a while, because the sheep keep biting the Masters hand and running away from Him and into the forest where there are wolves, I just wanna yell "HEY STUPID SHEEP! STOP BEING STUPID AND EAT THE FOOD, TINA!!!!"
I love the Lord and I will keep feeding His sheep, even if they keep rejecting Him and choosing to starve and get eaten by wolves! because they`re CRAZY!
To the lovely sheep reading this message today. Please, for me, self-evaluate and see if you are really eating ALL the food He has prepared for you.
Are you sometimes running away from His masterful, loving hands into a pack of ravenous wolves?
Do you at times reject His sustanance and instead let your soul suffer and go hungry?
Come unto Him, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and He will give you rest. Take His yoke upon you, and learn of Him... and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For His yoke is easy, and His burden is light. (Matthew 11:28-30)
Come unto Jesus.
With all the Love in my Heart
and until next week
XoXo-Hermana Valenzuela
