I am stressed... but not drowning. 

Events wise this week: we were awoken in the madrugada Friday by a really sad phone call. 

The 2nd youngest little boy in my favorite family, the MARTINEZ family (the one I wrote on my blog about like 1 change ago), Fabian, died. He got stung by a ton of ants and 3 days later his heart stopped. It was REALLY sad and extremely preventable. 

We SAW him 2 days before and he was all puffed up and swollen and so I told his mom he should go to the hospital. She said her husband didnt want her to go and she couldnt take all the kids and plus he was getting better.... I believed her.

 I offered to call the bishop or primary pres. She was like "what are they gonna do?" and I said "Idk... they can make you a casserole? or watch the kids while you go to the Doctor... SOMETHING" "no no.... he is really fine. He is getting WAY better" Ok. We had our lesson and left. I called the Primary Presidenta ANYWAY because I am stubborn and asked her to at least stop by and check on the boy. She just gave me excuses of why she couldnt. She asked me to call the bishop. I asked if SHE could at LEAST do that (because as priorly mentioned I feel really stressed). She agreed. That night after consejo de barrio (which NO ONE came to) she called to tell me she had done nothing. She hadnt even called the Bishop. 

That night, I cried from frustration of not being able to force people to take responsibility! My tears solved nothing. My acts prevented nothing. And now little 3 year old Fabian is dead. And I am sad because I love him. But... Im also at peace because I really do know that God is in charge. I know that his life was already hard, too. His parents are not cumpliendo with all thier sacred responsibilities. His family is big and poor and so it will be nice for him to rest instead of the struggle of life. I know that he is saved by the grace of Christ.

 Happy day, All is well. 

But I feel saddened by the situation. 

 The HAPPY news of the week is that we had an INCREDIBLE lesson with the Souza family. God knows how STRESSED I am and... its really hard carrying MOST of the lesson... so I have been STRESSIN´ on HOW I could powerfully and effectively teach the Restoration to their needs. The Spirit TOTALLY guided. everything was VERY clear and just... Awesome. MARVELOUS! I loved it. They are getting married this Saturday. Hermana Edna said she is geting baptized with or without Luis and Luis promised he´d read and pray. so... thats Great! (He still wont give up excuses and come to church, but I told him straight up "Luis, Yo te prometo 2 cosas: #1 si quieres asistir, vas a poder, si NO quieres, nunca vas a llegar y #2 Te prometo que cualquier sacrificio que hagas para poder venir y obtener tu testimonio de que lo que hemos compartido es verdadero...CUALQUIER cosa que sacrificas, será multiplicado 100-fold!" 

So... He knows... now its up to him But... Prayers would help. 

 Other news. There was a showing of MEET THE MORMONS at out stake center and all our investagators couldnt come so we called some antiguos and they not only CAME but they DROVE US AND PICKED UP SOME OF OUR "FRIENDS" and brought them too (The daughters of our recent convert. They did NOT want to come but after much prayer CAME!!!!!) We were not told until the DAY before about the activity and somehow we had a total of NINE people there AND we are working with those Antiguos again!!! So... :) And... We are starting English Classes everyweek to try to find some news. Wish us luck #actuallyPrayforus Well thats the update because.... thats the life. I worry about all these people and try to help them while I can. The best way I can help them now is by offering them "everlasting waters" and testifying and promising them that they will "never thirst" as the Savior said. 

 Im trying. 

 XOXO HERMANA VALENZUELA

Its all normal missionary life. I am trying to get my comp into the routine.... training her in the ways.... trying to show her how to love it... 

 It is often said that the teacher learnes more than the student... 

Here is my weeks lesson: Hermana Ross is pretty chill and I think determined to stay and do this thing... but there were TWO things I personally wanted her to learn. #1 Gods way is the best way... Thats coming off well because we´re obedient and getting in the groove (for her... Im like IN the groove. this feels like all ive ever known...In smack dab in the middle of the groove) #2 If you´re not having fun, you´re not doing it right.... well here is the lesson. Its not like she wants to die 24/7... but I dont think she LOVES it (yet). 

That is normal, but I want to help her love it. So I am doing my best to point out how great the mission is, to help her see and feel it. Well.. I keep tearing up and proclaiming my LOVE for this work. It sounds sweet and all... but its real bitter when mixed with "its all going to be over soon". We listened to a song from the Missionary Tunes "the Work"... idk its a CD wyatt sent me. google it: "its gonna take work.... pushing though your back is sore....knock knock knocking on a billion doors!!! this work is gonna fix what dont work anymore" and I just.... cried. happy tears while I washed the dished because there is too much to do to hold still. 

I LOVE the mission. It´s so freaking hard and I cant wait to get home but its the best thing ever and I never wanna leave. I don´t wanna stop! I want to give up every second and I am determined to excercise my faith and endure til the end CADA MOMENTO!.... is that normal?contraditory? idk... but... that what I am teaching her/learning hardcore. I LOVE MY MISSION. I am exhasted and ready to keep going forever. Other News: - Hermana Ross is helping me know things about college so... thats good. I know what I want to major and minor in AND I know what that MEANS! hahahahaha (I will still have to pray and confirm these things when I am in a posición to ACT on them... because faith requires ACTS) -I saw Hermana Whittaker today and we were hilarious. per norm. -I will call home on Mother´s day! And lastly - An Elder who in in Argentina, my pal from the CCM (Elder Castillo... I think I sent home pictures). He wrote me this week and reminded me that the Lord kept working even when he knew his hour was near. He said it better and in Spanish... but it was a good reminder so... LETS DO THIS ONE (ten) MORE TIME(s) Until Next week, Forever yours and Forever young- HERMANA LIBERTEE VALENZUELA